Time really really flies in USM. It has been a year now since I enter this "deserted" university in Kubang Kerian, Kelantan. Hahaha... Just finished Phase 1 Professional Exam a few days ago and started my movie marathon since then.
Thinking back, I was still busy with the CNY performance a few months back, balancing dancing training with academic stuff. Everyday, I had at least 4 hours of dancing practice plus at least 4 lecture notes to read up. It was quite stressful but I really did have fun! CNY was closely followed by Selanjar 3 (CA), which all the Chinese feeling quite tense up since we had been submerged in the performance too much that we had lost our directions academic wise. But really thank God that I manage to score an A in the exam. Hehehe.... Happy!
I wanted to prepare for PRO 2 months before, but it seems like I can't get the right mood to concentrate and focus on my studies. Homesickness is the main problem. So, I decided to go home during the first week of study week. I planned to finish at least 4 blocks of notes at home, but guess what? I was addicted to TV shows throughout the week and only managed to scan through less than 3 blocks of notes. Anyway, charging up at home brought new breath to my revision back in the hostel. :)
Reading and memorizing are totally two different things. And so, I get really frustrated when PRO approaches, realizing that I wasn't able to recall most of the things I read previously. The only thing I was able to do is to pray hard. And this time round, I know deep in my heart that I wouldn't be able to do it without God's guidance and blessings. Finally, I learnt to let God and let go. For every exam paper that I sat, I went in with a calm heart and strong faith. It was amazing to have that kind of feeling, especially during this major exam as I've never experienced such calmness ever. Praise the Lord!
Anyway, I just wanted a pass for this exam so that I can get the ticket to go into 2nd year.
And today, the VIVA list has been released. My friends urge me to go and check whether I am in the list. And my only reply was,"Ahhh, its is impossible for me to be in the list." I was still doing beads and then I received a call from PPSG admin, asking me to go for VIVA interview tomorrow!!! Arghhhhh!!! I was so shocked that I manage to get an A for PRO! I was still trembling after putting down the phone, knowing that I'll be shoot by a panel of doctors tomorrow during the VIVA interview. I just don't want to be embarrased. So, should I continue reading tonight or should I just enjoy myself (being shoot by the doctors 2mrw)? Hahaha....
God's grace really guides me through all these and I am grateful for everything that He has given me in life. Thank God! God is good all the time.
