Reality

You thought you treat people nicely and you would get the same in return. But in reality, this is not always true.

People on earth seems to establish relationship based on advantages, unfortunately. It might be once in a life time chance to find someone who is not genetically related to you to actually care about you at all times.

It's so hard to even find a friend and talk your problems out. They either don't care or they are just too busy with their lives. They don't say it but you know what's the monologue in their heart : "Hey, it's holiday and I have my wonderful plannings going on. Please don't disturb me." or "Can you leave me alone? I have books to study and assignments to do!" or "All you've said are just small matters. Why make it seems like a big deal?"

I am quite sensitive to feel people's emotion, so I can straight away point their feelings out through their words, facial expression or body language.

When I care for people, I do it sincerely. And if you treat me nicely, I will treat you 10 times nicer. That's me. Sometimes, I doubt whether I should care for others so much. Not to say I want all of them to treat me nicely in return, but at least there's a listener there when I need one. Its very suffocating when I have to bear all the hard feelings inside and stresses and not be able to let it out. I hope I can still keep the blood pressure down. But for sure, there will be a volcanic eruption soon or I'll just retreat from these realistic world socially. Enough said.

It's Time to Go Back

3 months passed just like that. Before my long holiday starts, I have planned a bunch of stuff in my mind to accomplished.
I ate countless bowl of Laksa Sarawak, Kolo Mee & Claypot Mee;
brushed up my beading skill;
planted vege;
baked bread & cakes;
worked as a free housemaid for my family;
painted & decorated my house etc etc.

BUT....................................

Yes, there's always a BUT~~~ I failed to accomplish one of the most important tasks------ study/revise. Ohh, just couldn't bare all the distractions back in hometown when it's HOLIDAY! How to have study mood during my precious lovely holiday? Ok, they are excuses. I am just lazy to read up. :P Just hope that my memory isn't that bad yet to forget ALL my 1st year stuff... Then my Viva sure 'kena tarik balik'...hahaha... *mouth crossed

So I am going back to that entertainmentless state tomorrow. Reluctant is the only word to describe my feeling now. How nice if Unimas offers Dentistry, then I could stay here with my family. Well, life doesn't go exactly as we want them to be. So, I'll just have to face the reality. Hopefully no tears shed at the airport. Mummy, Daddy, I Love You!!!

Happiness & Sorrows of My Past 1 Year

In this post, I would list out my happiest & saddest things that happened to me for my past one year in university. Thinking back the happy moments, it'll always trigger my zygomaticus muscle & move my lips commissure superolaterally. While those sad moments just stimulate my lacrimal gland. Hahahaha...forgive me for the medical jargons...can't help to delete from my mind after 1 year of study. :p

Let's continue on with the happy stuff first :
1)

I find it a great blessing from God to meet a few brothers and sisters in Christ who really cares for me, loves me, and pampers me like I am one of their family members. I can always go to them whenever I'm trapped in a stressful situation or I am upset with the life in university. Gabriel, who consistently sends encouraging bible verses in the beginning of every week, cooks good food and deliver to our windows whenever he is free or during our exams, prays for us when we are weak, be the victim for the juniors to bully, teaches me good beading skills etc. What an amazing CF president! Next is Sarah, who really cares for me and treats me sincerely, makes my birthday meaningful, gives me hotdog on Valentine's Day =D (what a surprise! LOL), cooks dessert and prays for me before every exam. She is the friendliest & lovable senior I've ever met! Of course they are others who are always there to support and care for me, which makes me so touched as I've never experienced such love from non-family members.



2)

I had really experienced God's love in person and learned to trust Him in making changes in my life. I feel really powerless to remember every single thing in every block before Professional Exam, and I decided to just study as much as I could and trust Him to do the rest for me. Faith is the only thing that I hold on to before stepping into the examination hall, believing Him that He'll guide me through. And amazingly, He has awarded me with great results that I've never expected.



3)

[A bunch of crazy dental & medical students having fun while studying serious stuff]

Having a circle of friends who are quite crazy (not as crazy as Form 5 or Form 6 friends) and who invented more nicknames for me. But sad thing is that they only discover my craziness towards the end of our academic session. Hahaha... ^^



There are a couple of sad things that I really care for and will never forget them. Coz they really hurt me. T.T

1)

My birthday. They celebrated for my two not-so-close friends(lets call them Ms. A & Ms. B) and me 2 weeks before my birthday because PRO exam was approaching. Actually the birthday celebration was meant for Ms. A and they invite most of her friends. Only a few faces that I'm familiar with appear. I am contented actually. But the saddest thing is that one of the organizer accidentally said that it was incidentally that they celebrated for me. 顺便... I was deeply hurt. On the actual day of my birthday, none of my dental friends celebrated for me as well coz they were all busy studying for exam. Yet, they celebrated for another friend when exam is 1 week ahead. It was an awful, meaningless, frustrated birthday I've ever had. T.T Luckily, my senior sincerely visited me and bought me cakes + lunch + dinner. This helps me swallow my sorrow back.



2)

People misunderstood me as being too proud of myself when I introduce myself this way : "Hi. My name is xxx. I know it's hard for people to remember my name since I have no Christian's name. But there's a trick and I'll teach you that. Just remember the number 1 and the letter C." Rumours all about this spreaded to the whole campus and seniors came warning me to be humble and quiet. And I ended up being very careful in speech and remain quite and introvert for the 1st few months in USMKK. No close friends at all to turn to in the beginning. I called my parents everyday and cried.


These are a few things that happened and had left marks all over my heart for the past year. Just hope happy things keep blooming while sad things don't repeat for the rest of my uni life in USMKK. =)

Miracles Happen because of God's Grace

Time really really flies in USM. It has been a year now since I enter this "deserted" university in Kubang Kerian, Kelantan. Hahaha... Just finished Phase 1 Professional Exam a few days ago and started my movie marathon since then.

Thinking back, I was still busy with the CNY performance a few months back, balancing dancing training with academic stuff. Everyday, I had at least 4 hours of dancing practice plus at least 4 lecture notes to read up. It was quite stressful but I really did have fun! CNY was closely followed by Selanjar 3 (CA), which all the Chinese feeling quite tense up since we had been submerged in the performance too much that we had lost our directions academic wise. But really thank God that I manage to score an A in the exam. Hehehe.... Happy!

I wanted to prepare for PRO 2 months before, but it seems like I can't get the right mood to concentrate and focus on my studies. Homesickness is the main problem. So, I decided to go home during the first week of study week. I planned to finish at least 4 blocks of notes at home, but guess what? I was addicted to TV shows throughout the week and only managed to scan through less than 3 blocks of notes. Anyway, charging up at home brought new breath to my revision back in the hostel. :)

Reading and memorizing are totally two different things. And so, I get really frustrated when PRO approaches, realizing that I wasn't able to recall most of the things I read previously. The only thing I was able to do is to pray hard. And this time round, I know deep in my heart that I wouldn't be able to do it without God's guidance and blessings. Finally, I learnt to let God and let go. For every exam paper that I sat, I went in with a calm heart and strong faith. It was amazing to have that kind of feeling, especially during this major exam as I've never experienced such calmness ever. Praise the Lord!

Anyway, I just wanted a pass for this exam so that I can get the ticket to go into 2nd year.

And today, the VIVA list has been released. My friends urge me to go and check whether I am in the list. And my only reply was,"Ahhh, its is impossible for me to be in the list." I was still doing beads and then I received a call from PPSG admin, asking me to go for VIVA interview tomorrow!!! Arghhhhh!!! I was so shocked that I manage to get an A for PRO! I was still trembling after putting down the phone, knowing that I'll be shoot by a panel of doctors tomorrow during the VIVA interview. I just don't want to be embarrased. So, should I continue reading tonight or should I just enjoy myself (being shoot by the doctors 2mrw)? Hahaha....

God's grace really guides me through all these and I am grateful for everything that He has given me in life. Thank God! God is good all the time.

1st Selanjar Exam soon...

Just a short update...
I am going back to the Friday-is-a-rest-day state in 3 days time.
I'll be having 2 exams in the coming 2 weeks, dental exam followed by medical exam.
I've read through the notes for dental syllabus but piles of medical notes are still waiting for me. Nothing seems to be absorbed into my mind now. It's so stressful. I am not sure whether I want to have this kind of life for the next 5 years.

What A Great Night!

Just had my birthday celebration with friends (16/04/2010).  It's my first time to celebrate with friends though.  Felt really excited and happy. 

We went to Kado Cafe, a cosy cafe situated behind Lok Thian Restaurant, non-air conditioned, but with fantastic decorations.  Pei Zam was already there waiting for us when we arrived at around 6:55pm.  She reached there 30 minutes before us.  What a pity to have her waiting for us, the VIPs. LOL!!

(We = Karen @ Master of BL Zoo, Siew Lin @ The Royal Cow, Phyllis @ Piggy Choo, Jennifer @ Eagle, Me @ _ _ _ _ _ <> _ _ _ _ *secret)

We talked and laughed all the time.  It had been a while since we gathered and went crazy like that.  Piggy and The Royal Cow went to the toilet a few times that I thought they were having bladder problems.  LOL... After we had finished our dishes, The Royal Cow came back with a Chocolate Cake!!!! Arghhhhh...I went crazy...Chocholate-rich cake...My favourite flavour... :P

We asked the waiter to switch off the fan as the candles couldn't be lighted up.  Then we were asked to change to another interior room, with no fan, no air-conditioned.  After taking photos, we switched again to another section of the restaurant because it was too hot.  The waiter had to clean three sections all together.  Poor him.  We called him 'uncle' although he was not old. 

Pei Zam and Jennifer had to leave earlier as they have other plans/transport problem.  We continued chit-chatting for an hour or so and decided to change another location.  Switch atmosphere. Teehee..

We went to Tarrots Cafe at Jalan Kereta Api.  Had another round of drinks and played UNO too.  It had been ages since I played UNO.  Can't remember a thing about it.  *embarrased

Before we left the last location, The Royal Cow took out a present from her bag, asking me to open it up on the spot.  I was too 'shy' to do it in front of them...LOL!!!

That's all about it.  This birthday celebration will be embedded in my memory and my heart forever.  Thanks to my lovely friends.  Muacks!!!

Now it's 1:40a.m. and I am still awake, fully powered due to the happiness, excitedness and craziness experienced.  =P 

The lovely present from Cathy Lam, Phyllis Jap, Karen Chong, Jennifer Ng and Pei Zam .... XD

Grey Area in Life Philosophy

I’ve been living for almost twenty years and still can’t understand the meaning of life.

Just clueless.

Should we strive, to challenge ourselves to do our best in everything, and to utilize every bit of talent or wisdom God has given us to become someone successful in life?

OR

Should we just stay cheerful and live our life the way we like? As people always quote, “Life is short. Live it the way you want it to be.”

For some people, the two statements can be merged into one good sentence, and be practiced in their life as well. For example, a musician can live a happy and meaningful life and be successful in his career. Minorities can achieved this balance.

In comparison, a doctor, who strives hard to study all the human anatomy and stuffs his brain with unlimited increasing knowledge, can’t be cheerful always. Disappointment and depression are always by his side. He might miss many beautiful things in life, such as the precious moments with their love ones. Majorities fall into this group.

For most people, it resembles the case of the doctor. The two lifestyles are just like a pair of parallel lines. Never meet.

But we always hear that doctors are serving God, as they are appointed specifically by Him. Is this what life is all about? About serving Him the way He wants?

Life After STPM 5 :)

Yeehaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, I have regained my freedom.  

1)  I don't have to wake up at 5.45 am every morning, just to get to school by 6.20 am.
2)  I don't have to prepare teaching materials until 12 midnight, which is way much more boring than doing homework.  :P
3)  I don't have to read any unreadable handwriting anymore, which resets my vision and brain to their original NORMAL settings. 
4)  I don't have shout my lungs out.
5)  I don't have to write record books and teaching plannings.


And, I have received my salary!! A cheque....My first pay!!! It feels good.  :)

Life After STPM Part 3

The STPM result was released on 25th February 2010.

It was Thursday and I was still teaching in school when the result is announced.  To get rid of the nervousness and anxiousness trapped in my soul, I sms-ed to check my result.  After 10 minutes, I received the result.  Well, I expect to get 4.0 CGPA but as usual, I am not a very lucky person.  Didn't get what I wished for.

My result is not a secret.  So here you are : 3A, 1A-. CGPA:3.92     *sigh

My Maths teacher was so shocked when I got an A- for my Maths.  I can't believe it too.  Not that I want to boast myself, but I have put a lot of effort in Maths, as well as other subjects.  And I usually get around 85 marks for my Maths.  How can that be an A-?  Oh well, what can I do?  Nothing.

Our school didn't have straight A's (not including A-) students for 3 years consecutively already.  My friends know some of the friends from other schools who manage to get 4.0 CGPA.  According to the usual academic performance of these group of people, they didn't have good track results as compared to us, but they got straight A's.  What we can deduce from this phenomenon is that, each centre (school) is marked by different group of teachers and therefore, different standards evolved in the marking system.  "Un-lucky-ness" has become part of my life.  Let me bare with it for another, say, 60 years? (If I can live up to 80 years)  LOL!!!

Okay, get over with the results.  Now I have to figure out a way to get myself into the Dentistry programme in local universities.  With 300 STPM students getting straight A's and unknown number of Matriculation students emerging this year (predicted to be more than 600 due to the lenient system), I really don't know what is the chance of me getting the course I want.  Having told that there are 200 dentistry vacancies and 1000 vacancies in the local universities, I think the chances are getting lower.  My dad asked me,"Why you always choose the critical course?"  What should I answer him?

If the government do not offer the course I want this time round, I plan to take overseas course or go into private university.  Let the local universities be filled with the 'M' people.  I'll serve another country who appreciate me.  Failing to secure a JPA scholarship with my 10A1 and 1A2 result has really pissed me off.  If I fail to secure a dentistry/medicine seat in local universities, then that's it.  I fade up, not with myself.  You know the answer.

So currently, I am glued to my laptop whenever I'm free, searching for overseas scholarships and applying for local universities courses.  Let's see how it goes.  Will update if possible. :D

Life After STPM Part 2

Teaching Primary 2 is killing my voice box.

There are 50 students in a class and you need to make sure everyone is doing their job (that is studying) and not making noise or bullying other students.

Well, just by describing here is not enough to make you understand how is the real situation in the class.

Imagine that one student reports to you that XXX is teasing XXX.  Once you have settled this case, another student pops out behind you, pulling your skirt and says,"Teacher, XXX is crying. XXX punches her at the stomach."  While you are settling these cases, the other students are making so much noise that it reaches 10000 decibels, or more. 

This continues on and on until the whole lesson is gone. *it rhymes

Education has changed nowadays.  Now, primary school teachers, especially those teaching lower standards classes, are like babysitters, who babysit 50 big babies, and yet only receive the salary from two families.  Fair?

Teaching Year 6 is a totally different experience.  They can be controlled but there are still moments for them to be crazy and noisy and annoying.  This is acceptable.  Just that you have to figure out billions of ways to tackle them and make them your friends.  That's it.

Teaching Year 4 is the easiest for me.  They still believe in lies.  Ooopsss... Okay, white lies.  Nah, I did not lie to them, but other teachers certainly did.  I shall not reveal their names.  LOL!!!  And Year 4 students are not as mature as Year 6 to debate with you.  So no worries.  Just go in the class and act fierce and TADARRR, they will be as tame as a cat as well.

These are my experience of teaching primary school students for just TWO days.  Still 21 days to go.  *Countdown-ing

Wish that these classes are still under my control for the next 21 working days.  =P

Life After STPM Part 1

Foohhhh.....I neglected my blog because I can't escape from my busy schedule although I should be having holidays now after STPM. *sigh

Well, a few days back, my dad was watching the news on TV, then he turned to me and said,"Hey, STPM result will be released on the 25th." I turned to him slowly like there's nothing surprising and asked,"You mean 25th March?"

He then looked at his watch and said,"Should be 25th February since they announce it so early."

DANG!!!

That is the moment I heart stopped beating.  Dying -------- Dead................................

Basically, I didn't sleep well that few days.  Once I think about my result, the chilling sensation run through my limbs and my heart beats like a bullet train.  Yeap, BULLET TRAIN.  Speed : 350 km per hour.

On Monday morning, my house phone rang.  It was my mum calling from her school.

Mum said, "Girl, do you want to teach at your previous primary school?"

I said, "HAR????!!!! When? What subject am I teaching? Students of which year am I teaching? Is it a good class or bad class?"

Mum paused for a while and replied me, "Starting from tomorrow onwards.  You are teaching English, Chinese, Moral and Music.  Your class will be Year 2, Year 4 and Year 6."

I shouted,"What?! Can you please let me think for a while and I'll tell you my decision later?"

Mum said,"Cannot.  You have to make your decision now, or else, they will find others to fill the vacancy. So okay har?"

I replied, "Har.....har.....har.....haiyo....."

Mum said, "I take that as a yes.  Okay, BYE!"

She hung up the phone.  And yet, I have not even spoken any words expressing my decision.

So now, I am officially a temporary teacher at SJK Chung Hua Batu 4 1/2.  My old school.

没了父爱，连母爱也不要？

在教堂里认识了一对母子。孩子的爸爸在孩子才区区两岁的时候，就不声不响离开了家。他离开家当天就将家里所有门锁都换了，还在门前贴了个“出售”牌子。这婚姻就这样断了，那孩子也就这样没了爸爸。

那母亲认为孩子没了严 父教导必定会放肆，所以她一直相信“藤鞭”式教育，十分严厉的管教孩子。“打是疼，骂是爱”是她的原则。哪知这孩子越教越坏。上了中学之后，跟了一般猪朋 狗友加入了黑社会，帮忙在校园里为“有难”的同学“解围”，也常常逃课。这母亲因此而慢慢改变了教育方式，不再责骂他，用爱的教育来劝解他。

中学毕业后，家人建议把那儿子送到工艺学校升学，以能远离他那一班坏朋友，希望他能重新出发，也许还会有个美好的未来。孩子强硬拒绝了这个安排，坚持要在城市里的学院升学，并威胁他母亲：“你不要买车子给我，我就不读书。”那还不到40岁的母亲因为长久将伤痛埋藏在心底，患上了心脏病，正在服用四种药物。
 
儿子后来交了个女朋友。女方家长十分反对两人 的关系，霸道的儿子开口说要找人炸了他俩才甘心。母亲深知儿子有可能做出伤天害理的事，恰好当天凌晨三点，儿子的女友拨电话来（给母亲），母亲为了妙龄女 子的前途，决定告诉她儿子的前例。结果，傻乎乎的女友竟然还不知醒悟，向男朋友坦白他妈妈所说的一切。

最近，事情越闹越僵。有一天，儿子传简讯给妈妈，说：“准备RM 10000，汇入我的户口，我现在已经不是你的儿子！你再找她（女朋友），我永远都不会原谅你！”母亲看了，当场崩溃。儿子后来又来了一则短讯：“我决定离家出走了！这不是我的家！如果你不要给我那笔钱，不要紧！至少我的户口里要有RM 3000，这是我从小的红包钱！”

天下为什么会有如此不孝的儿子？不管怎样，那 诞生妈妈也挨了十几年，一个人辛辛苦苦地把孩子养大，虽然储蓄不多，她尽量带儿子去旅游，给儿子最好的，想弥补他“没爸爸”的空缺。难道这一切都是白费的 吗？也许她施于孩子的启蒙教育不正确，但她有改过啊！孩子不但没感谢妈妈伟大的母爱，还以恶劣的态度对待妈妈，到最后甚至想脱离母子关系！与其养这种孩 子，何不养只狗呢？狗见到主人还会摇尾巴呢，这孩子只会咬她一口，送给了她如次震撼的2010年跨年礼物？真是呜呼哀哉！没了父爱，应该更珍惜母爱嘛！真为那苦命的母亲觉得不值得！

Info for IT Consumers

During the Kuching ICT Expo (PC Fair), my dad bought me an ACER laptop from Boulevard IT.
*Clarification : This shop has nothing to do with Boulevard The Shopping Mall, it's an ICT shop in Saberkas.

Searching for a suitable laptop all day long, we decided to buy Acer Aspire model 4736G.
Cost : RM2399.oo
Specifications :
- Intel Core Duo Processor
- NVIDIA GeForce
- 14.0'' HD LED LCD
- 4GB Memory
- 500 GB HDD
- built-in webcam
- genuine Windows 7 + free 1-year antivirus
- Free gifts : Mouse, mouse pad, keyboard protector, screen protector, back pack, spongy laptop case, cooler fan, laptop vacuum cleaner, headphone and the cleaning kit.

Before leaving Boulevard IT Store, we asked the promoter to check whether all the package contents were complete. I thought everything went well. But when I reached home and started to explore my new laptop, I found something missing. The most important thing -- the cable connecting the laptop to the power source!!! It was 3 hours after our purchase. Wouldn't they notice that there's extra cable in their shop???!!!

Nevermind. It was 8:00 pm and we called the store. Surprisingly, no one picks up the phone. 3 trials in a period of 20 minutes turns out nothing. So we rushed to the store. The senior asked the junior to search it somewhere in the store. And he found it under a pile of papers!!!!!! What a disorganised store.

Another thing that pissed me off was the free gift --- screen protector. Excuse me sir, I am buying a 14.0'' laptop and what did you give me? A 10.0'' screen protector?!!!! What is wrong with you?? Or you are used to that, buying a XS shirt for your XLL body?

We went back home, hoping there's nothing wrong anymore. So I tried going online with my new laptop. After around 10 minutes of surfing, my computer suddenly hanged. Mouse cursor remains static, windows task manager can't be opened...So I switch off the power source as there were no other ways. I thought it was me who was too rushed to open a few web pages at once, thus causing the computer to hang. But after a week or so, I know it wasn't my problem. I faced the same problem 9 out of 10 times when I am connected to a network.

And so, we went back to Boulevard IT store AGAIN!!!! They don't know what was the problem. One of the senior said, "Everything is fine LERRRR....nothing wrong LERRR...." and he asks his junior to convey that message to us. What is wrong with you? We were standing just 3 feet from you and you can't talk to us directly? IMPOLITE.

Then, they ask me to surf the net in front of them, and go the website that causes my laptop to hang. Well, basically, it hangs spontaneously at all websites. After 10 minutes, nothing happens and the senior smiles. Excuse me, do you think I am fooling you around and creating stories? Am I supposed to make the computer hang on the spot so that you can solve the problem? Shiiiishh..what kinda technician is that? They ask us to go back without giving any advice or suggestion.

So, friends out there, never go to Boulevard IT store in Saberkas. I recommend 3E computer store. The goods are of lower prices and the technicians were very polite and helpful.

I will never go to Boulevard IT store again. Sayonara.

It's Over!!

Finally, after one-and-a-half-year of sufferings, headaches, endurance and examinationssssss in Form 6, STPM is over!!

So for the moment, I'll try to forget about my performance for each paper and have a peaceful and happy life before the result is released!! Oh God, please help me to achieve my goal -- 4.0 CGPA in STPM. Amen. :)

Well, after the last paper, it's like loosening up the rope tighten around our neck all this while. The members of the animal kingdom (Piggy, Cowy, Teddy, Bunny, Faithy) straight away rush into Kbox in Spring and shout our heart out. For 3 hours, we sing and fool around and finished 3 jugs of cold drinks. Can't imagine how crazy we were. RM 17 gone in just 3 hours.

Next up, we are planning to sing karaoke again in Absolute (not really sure where it is, but found it in a web). RM 10 for students and we can sing for 6 hours. Bet that we are gonna have husky voice after that singing session. Can't wait!!

Hectic Life in Form Six

Form 6 is forever a no-no for all the SPM graduates. Why?

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Reason 1:
It is super tough. Although there are only five subjects to be studied (i.e. less than half of the total number of subjects in SPM), the books are as thick as the stratosphere. You'll get giddy just by looking at the thickness of the books. You have 3 thick books for Chemistry (Physical, Organic & Inorganic), 2 not-so-thick-but-packed-with-trivial-facts Biology books, 1 textbook for General Studies, also needs excellent memories. These 6 books are the silent killers for Form 6 students in the Science stream....

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Reason 2:
STPM is the second toughest examination in the whole world after the x(unknown) examination in Russia(this is what I heard). UPSR, PMR and SPM are organized by Lembaga Peperiksaan Malaysia(LPM), while STPM is organized by Majlis Peperiksaan Malaysia(MPM). The standard is higher compared to SPM because the examination board will not alter the grading system based on the overall performance of all candidates. Compare the past year results for SPM and STPM, and you'll know the difference.

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Reason 3:
Form 6 students are studying in government schools. Therefore, it's compulsory for this group of students to take part in extra curricular activities and to strike a balance between academic and co-curricular performances. This indirectly causes students to lose focus in their studies. If this ever happens, then your chances of getting a place in local universities will definitely decrease. For non-Bumis, think of your ranking in the quota system.
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Reason 4:
You are wasting your two years studying Form 6 if you didn't do well in STPM. Its quite hard for you to squeeze yourself into any local universities even if you get, let say 2A 1A- 1B in STPM. You know why? Because you have great competitors emerging out from Matriculation. They can get 4.00 CGPA easily compared to an STPM candidate. Attendance and assignments are taken into account and are given marks in Matrics. The exam questions are set by the lecturers in the campus. Before the exam, the lecturer usually will say," Yesterday, I dreamt of the exam questions......." I bet you know what happened next. Even if the Form 6 students put in 10 times the effort to do well in STPM, they can hardly outstand the Matrics students. The reasons are clear.

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In Form 4 and 5, we always say, "Arh, I will never study Form 6!!"...Please do not make such statement too early because you will never know what is waiting for you at the end of the road. I did so while I were in Form 5. But at the end, I still end up in Form 6. LOL!!!

In my case, although Form 6 life is really hectic, I treasure every second I have now and just trying to make the best out of everything in Form 6. I know this is the road that God wants me to take. So, Hakuna Matata!! =P